By: Nyasha Sibanda
You are not an accident. Your birth was no mistake or mishap, and your life is no fluke of nature. Your parents may not have planned for you, but God did. He was not at all surprised by your birth. In fact, he expected it. Long before you were conceived by your parents, you were conceived in the mind of God. He thought of you first. It is not fate, nor chance, nor luck, nor coincidence that you are breathing at this very moment.
You are alive because God wanted to create you! God prescribed every single detail of your body. He deliberately chose your race, the color of your skin, your hair, and every other feature. He custom-made your body just the way he wanted it. He also determined the natural talents you would possess and the uniqueness of your personality. God also planned where you’d be born and where you’d live for his purpose. Your race and nationality are no accident. God left no detail to chance. He planned it all for his purpose. Nothing in your life is arbitrary. It’s all for a purpose.
Most amazing, God decided how you would be born. Regardless of the circumstances of your birth or who your parents are, God had a plan in creating you. It doesn’t matter whether your parents were good, bad, or indifferent. God knew that those two individuals possessed exactly the right genetic makeup to create the custom “you” he had in mind.
They had the DNA God wanted to make you. While there are illegitimate parents, there are no illegitimate children. Many children are unplanned by their parents, but they are not unplanned by God. God’s purpose took into account human error and even sin. God never does anything accidentally, and he never makes mistakes. He has a reason for everything he creates. Every plant and every animal was planned by God, and every person was designed with a purpose in mind.
So there’s this age-old, “Why am I here?” or “What is my purpose?” question. Sometimes we feel compelled to have this all figured out, especially at high school; at least that’s how it was for me. But I wouldn’t worry if you haven’t figured that out yet, I know I haven’t. As somber as it may seem, I constantly remind myself that my time here on earth is rather limited. And so then I precede to ask myself, what is it that I really want to experience or attain before I leave? In every breath I take, and every decision I make, what is it that I’m truly searching for.
To this day, I haven’t quite found a distinct and articulate answer. The revelation is but a blurry image, an abstract portrait of some kind, but it directs me in my every move. I know it is there, and I know there are many routes to achieving it. See, I’ve always been passionate about human behavior, about the human mind, about life and how we experience it, and so; poetry, psychology, and philosophy always lead me towards this portrait I can’t quite make out.
In all honesty, I can’t completely tell you what my purpose is, but I can detail to you so many ways I plan on achieving it. Ironic huh? There are still mornings when I wake up feeling like there’s no point to anything, asking myself; “if I’m going to die one day then what’s the point?” But that portrait, as incomplete as it may be, it’s what gives me the drive to keep going. We poets can’t give straight answers, can we?
My life is an endless search for the inconstant flashes of timeless beauty, a path in which I seek knowledge and truth, one in which the journey is the destination.
On this path, I am but a voyeur peeking through the window of people’s innermost thoughts, transfixed, obsessively gazing into the depths of the human mind. I quote, “purpose is an expression of the deepest dimensions within us, where we have a profound sense of who we are and why we are alive”
Once your image becomes to clear, you might run the risk of limiting yourself. As we go through life, we change, and that’s okay, but that “portrait…”
No matter how many times it changes, there’s always that image it’s trying to create. That thing… You know… That thing…
“It is purpose that created us, purpose that connects us, purpose that pulls us, that guides us, that drives us; it is purpose that defines… “, someone else would say.
If we let the world will decide it for us, and we’ll run the risk of spending our lives living according to the expectations of others. We might find some form of artificial happiness, or distract ourselves enough to occasionally forget, but we’ll never truly be satisfied with our work. Sometimes life calls for you to just focus on what you want because when it comes to your passions, anyone who tells you what you should doing is just making noise. If your passions are unconventional, even better! I can’t even count how many people are shocked by what I’ve chosen to be passionate about.
But I just use just as fuel, because I know that somehow, I would have stood out as unique; fitting like a puzzle piece into societal conventions is overrated anyway. Our purpose in life sometimes isn’t set in stone or revealed to us when we so badly want to know what it is; sometimes it’s just a matter of going where your passions take you. One thing is for sure, however, and that’s the fact that your purpose will continue to be revealed to you as you live your life, as you move from here to there, as you try new things because a life’s purpose isn’t an occurrence, it’s a whole journey of perpetual discovery, that ends with your last breath.
And here’s a hint, sometimes it is found in the places we’re most afraid to look.
On that note, have a nice life. Have fun with it and remember not to take it so seriously that you forget this handy detail; because you’ll want to look back and laugh, not to look back and wonder. Don’t forget to wake up and own how magical you truly are, and most of all, don’t be afraid to say it out loud, even if it’s to yourself. It might be awkward at first but it’s necessary. If you need to move on from certain people in order to fulfill your potential, then do it with the urgency with which you would put out a fire starting in your own home. It will be hurried and messy, but in the end, you will be really glad you did
A philosopher named David Thoreau once wrote
“Many people live lives of quiet desperation, and they go to their graves with the song still in them.”David Thoreau
A friend of mine once said that purpose brings life, and being alive is a joyful thing. The way I see it if we just seek joy, life becomes miserable. But if we focus on seeking the things that make us feel alive, even in our darkest moments joy is present. So instead of telling people to pursue happiness, I always tell them to pursue life instead, and find happiness there… But that’s just my way of encouraging purpose. You should also keep in mind that sometimes the things people do in search of joy only lead them away from their purpose.